喝了一罐强爽（葡萄），一口气喝下去现在在地铁上面感觉感官已经变得麻木了. I’m high

I need to drink as much as I can to suppress my nerves.

现在感觉肩膀肌肉好酸痛，在清醒状态下可能是会感觉让我慌乱和痛的，但是在现在的状态下我仿佛在dare the pain, like what are you going to do , I’m not going to die of this